Tuesday, October 10, 2017

have you heard the sounds of ocean- liners against the derailing cacophony of plymouthean waves? i was once but a mere student of all, but all was too much for such a simple-ton and temptation led me to become godlike in a manner that led to delirium -- delicious and lascivious.

"i want what i want when i want it"
as of this moment, i want you: now. i want you un-burden'd by clothes or morality; i desire you lustful and tempt'd --
for truth

for enigmatic translucent epiphets
that loosen the pressure of your legs

for vile mis
understandings that lead to volominious arguments that culminate in temper tandrums deflated by the promise of bawdy transgressions against godalmighty

for aromatic evenings in which you are not you and i am not i and the w-hole hubbub is merel-y fragrance in frenetic cache

for erronious depictions of what tomorrows and tomorrows and tomorrows promise in lilted tongue and broken speech

for broken disjoint'd sessions of love-making made with a strong absence of love

Monday, January 2, 2017

Reading List 2017


01 – 07            The Curtain: An Essay in Seven Parts | Milan Kundera
08 – 14            Between the World and Me | Ta-Nehisi Coates
15 – 21            A Field Guide to Getting Lost | Rebecca Solnit
22 – 28            The Blind Assassin | Margaret Atwood


29 – 04            The Ways of White Folks | Langston Hughes
05 – 11            Nausea | Jean-Paul Sartre
12 – 18            A Brief History of Seven Killings | Marlon James
19 – 25            We Should All Be Feminists | Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie


26 – 04            The Abortion: An Historical Romance 1966 | Richard Brautigan
05 – 11            We | Yevgeny Zamyatin
12 – 18            Malinche | Laura Esquivel
19 – 25            Bastard Out of Carolina | Dorothy Allison


26 – 01            Demons | Fyodor Dostoevsky
02 – 08            Demons | Fyodor Dosoevsky (cont’d)
09 – 15            Wide Sargasso Sea | Jean Rhys
16 – 22            Telex from Cuba | Rachel Kushner
23 – 29            Eight Mortal Ladies Possessed | Tennesse Williams


30 – 06            Mr. Potter | Jamaica Kincaid
07 – 13            3 Lives | Gertrude Stein
14 – 20            Hot Water Music | Charles Bukowski
21 – 27            To the Lighthouse | Virginia Woolf


28 – 03            Nightwood | Djuna Barnes
04 – 10            The God of Small Things | Arundhati Roy
11 – 17            Blow-Up and Other Stories | Julio Cortazar
18 – 24            Jim Crow’s Devil | Marlon James


25 – 01            The Devil and Ms. Prym | Paolo Coelho
02 – 08            White Teeth | Zadie Smith
09 – 15            Madame Bovary | Gustave Flaubert
16 – 22            Giovanni’s Room | James Baldwin
23 – 29            When Things of the Spirit Come First | Simone de Beauvoir


30 – 05            The Sheltering Sky | Paul Bowles
06 – 12            Switch, Bitch | Roald Dahl
13 – 19            The Vagina Monologues | Eve Ensler
20 – 26            Practicalities | Marguerite Duras


27 – 02            Play It as It Lays | Joan Didion
03 – 09            Tropic of Cancer | Henry Miller
10 – 16            Hope in the Dark | Rebecca Solnit
17 – 23            Justine, or Good Conduct Well Chastised | The Marquis de Sade
24 – 30            Cannery Row | John Steinbeck


01 – 07            Invitation to a Beheading | Vladimir Nabakov
08 – 14            Men Without Women | Ernest Hemingway
15 – 21            Wise Blood | Flannery O’Connor
22 – 28            The King in Yellow | Robert W. Chambers


29 – 04            The King in Yellow | Robert W. Chambers (cont’d)
05 – 11            Invisible Man | Ralph Ellison
12 – 18            Invisible Man | Ralph Ellison (cont’d)
19 – 25            The Cocktail Party | T.S. Eliot


26 – 02            Black Boy | Richard Wright
03 – 09            Everything Beautiful Began After | Simon Van Booy
10 – 16            The Temple of the Golden Pavilion | Yukio Mishima
17 – 23            Their Eyes Were Watching God | Zora Neale Hurston
24 – 30            A Christmas Carol | Charles Dickens


Friday, December 30, 2016

A Study In Memory

i maynot be able

help you forget -- but,
i can help


ories dreams
s hopes

just as youcannot help me

but you have started
to helpme


Monday, July 18, 2016

Green and Emerald

if orangeries would only, but then again why wouldnot

they -- i heard
your fragrance whisp'r'd along
the un-blossom-d organdies and
decay'd cherrie blossomss
and just like that;
when has summer ever depriv-
d us of God? or Sex (for that matter[s])
one is as Lavender'd as the other.

i painted you all in an acrobatic blue, but i
knew the difference; after so many affairs

only i could. do you
see mypoint...
do you still faultme for having
offered you

castles? it
innocent (i swear)

but the end is all one
as orangeries are,

but, honestly
why wouldnot they?

Wednesday, June 8, 2016

A Reflection on Passion

To contemplate the vibrations of waves hitting shore, I must pause
-ing the first time I press'd
my fingers
     into your goosebump'd skin
and you held on;

you taught me how to take a deep breath
-ing it last
longer than a sum
mer sunset.
Do you hear the waves?
Do you hear the sirens?

They are gasping for oxygen they don't need, and yet
what is more coveted than
That which is not for us?
Not for me?

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

forgive us (for we have sinned)

the Glandular hypothesis
contains something of the ephemeral, of the rotund, of the obsolete

something of the fecund, the titanic,

something of the past, the present,

(It contains no trace nor shadow
        of the future)

the hypothetical Glandular hypothesis

was designed by the hand of God, by the hand of the Abyss, by the hand on the clock that

reminds us: we are already late;

by the sacr'd hand that holds us as we cross the street, cross our hearts,
cross out the names of the ones we once lov-d,

Chin up. and Steady on.

the Glandular Hypothesis will be proven wrong December the 32nd, approximately; and June 15th, exactly.

Chin up.

what testicular vanity has lead to the procedural involvement between Faith & Reason -- anything to secure our place on top.

Monday, March 14, 2016

No. 1

To know who you are,
Where you live,
Where you work,
Where you like to drink,
Where you like to eat,
the street on which your old apartment resides with all the living memories of the boy whom you used to love (and possibly still do),
the grocery store you were against because you understand how gentrification works but they had the best selection,
the restaurants you know because other men had taken you there and you appreciated each date because you now have new recipes to recreate at home,
the library near your house that you will visit when the day is slow and if i was near we would either go to together or go on a day trip to visit your parents your sister and your niece and nephew who would (hopefully) come to see me as their uncle not by blood but by a stronger bond: choice,

to know of your existence
to feel what i feel
to feel what you feel

to attempt to fight against time
and to only wear myself out because that is the only fight that cant be won;

to know all of this and for it to still not be enough:

this is the definition of injustice.